High School Crush

if i follow you
will you hear
my steps
as they linger
in your shadow?

will you hear
my breath
as i whisper
your name
in my mind
hoping
somehow
you'll know
that i love you
even though
i'm not sure
you've looked at me
once?

will you remember
the way my eyes
were glued
to the back of your
shirt
and each time
you turned
towards me
i slid myself
under my desk
in hopes
you didn't see?

will you ever
know the
notes i wrote
or feel the
saline leak
of loss
I felt
without even
knowing you?

the smell of
your shirt
and knowing
you were smart,
like me
someone
maybe I could
one day talk to

was enough
for me
to declare
my forever love

but i didn't

only my
journal knew
my forever love
for you